So I'm sad and no one really cares because it's just me. No one really damn cares if I'm sad today, because nobody cares. I guess I purposely repeated that because thats the only way it will make sense. I guess you cant really expect anything for people and I've lost all hope for humanity. I guess I've written "I guess" a couple of times because that's what I can only hope to do. I've said "Hope" two times before this sentence because that's the only thing I want right now.



Hope is supposed to be a positive word. It's a damn cliche for positive thoughts.

So I guess I have to prove them wrong. I THINK hope means something negative

When your down to your last few hours, you can only hope you hadn't made the choices you did leading up to where you are now.

When every thing's falling apart, you can only hope for the best.

desperation, I tell you. .

and yet I want it, I want a lot, maybe I'm desperate enough to want it. . .

Moving on. . .

And so what happened today?

Yes its me thinking about how much I love someone that doesn't even care. I'm thinking back when I had a chance to choose. Now I'm asking if I did the right decision, and yeah I did.

She pushed me to the limit, do the things I only dreamed of doing. Feel the things I never thought was possible. It's sad, I might never be with her but she has taught me a lot. . Too love without asking for anything in return, pushing the limits of what I can do, and damn I am happy that I can make her smile.

I was never was the "you get experience" type of guy, I always wanted something in the end but with her I just do what I do and I'm happy.

I'm talking too much . .
Someone might actually understand me. . ><
So I guess I'm gonna stop. .

If you can hear me. .
always remember. .
be honest with me
If your not happy. .
tell me
and I'll stop
and be happy that you did
So please. .
If you can hear me. .
tell me. .
now. .