its been a long time (at least for me. .) since I last psoted on this blog, its just because my pc crashed lol and im using my mum's laptop. I cant upload any pictures ere. . :( Anyways. . .
I never thought we would talk about permanence and change. Its sorta an issue for me now, because this is the time when a lot of things and a lot of people around me changes without me ever noticing it. It might be good, it might be bad, well, maybe i'll just trust the cliche "change is good" I hope. .
About a year ago when I was still on my first year in de la salle, I was a member of block EQ, of course freshemen bonding is quite like highschool and sorta "different" from what I've experienced from the past. We were teenagers finding a place to belong. Of course at that time, my basis of friendship was on the looks, so i hanged out with some people on the first day. Sadly as the days passed, I came close to a different group of people, then after some more days to a different group, but alas I thought I had found peace on one group. So there came my first batch of self found friends in dlsu! I was happy that I had found my group.
As the months passed, subjects got harder and we got separated, but of course we were still as solid as we were. As some friendships grew deeper, they got more complicated and the word "complicated" doesnt come with friendship. I felt separated on our group and tried to find other friends. This was the start of the change that I was scared off. I got more separated from them as I found new friends, and I began to feel indifferent and out of place.*sigh*
Sometimes when i see them walking together I just take a deep breathe and try to give a nice smile as they pass by knowing that ONCE I was a part of them, but people change and its inevitable I just have to accept the fact.
Did it do me any good?
yes, I think so, because I began to work alone without depending on people. I also found out that your friends reflect who you are and I found out that i dont belong so why push myself in?!
yes I am bitter on what happend! yes I am unhappy because of some incidences! BUT the fact is, "Life goes on"
There are also a lot of things in my life that must and will change, its a bit big , its a bit sad, maybe ill tell you sometime on my later posts. 'til then, im out. . .